12:40 am - Sunday, Aug. 17, 2003
Mostly Laundry
I read an amazing novel today, and there are a few quotes in it that I really want to record, but I'm too tired to do it, so it will have to wait. I couldn't seem to muster up the usual lighthearted feeling that I get on the weekends. For me, the anxiety that I usually feel on sunday night knowing that I have to go back to work on monday I am now feeling on saturday, and friday night. It's ridiculous, I can't even enjoy my weekends without being worried about the week ahead. But I have to remind myself that time will pass next week whether I spend it with the kids, with marcus, or doing my own thing, although I would be much more productive with the latter. So I just need to take it one day at a time, and get through. Right now there are 6 1/2 working days left, soon there will be 3 1/2 and I will be so close to being done. I can get through this unappreciation, the chaos. Reminder to future self - I'm never having 4 kids. There is no time for ANYTHING but stress, keeping the house in order comes a close second, family time a distant third. hopefully the children will have their TV time reinstated, or I might go mad. Or sneak them over to my house to watch TV anyways. One or the other. One more week, one more week. It's my mantra. I should make a song to go with it. And then I get to see my baby, and all is going to be right with the world.
Today was productive. I went to the bank, the post office, the library, the grocery store. I'm looking after Nahri's little dog named SoonJin, and he is just the funniest little thing. Em had him last night, and I have him tonight, and I can't wait to get a dog of my own. I'll be really sad to see him go tomorrow. Also - the house is cleaner today, as I did most of my dishes. There's still alot for me to do tomrrow tho...mostly laundry. I better get to bed.
