9:13 am - Saturday, Sept. 06, 2003
Nerve! (bbzzzzzzz)
From the nerve center in the heart of the Jduc, I write to you diary, very happy to have an internet connection to pass the few minutes that aren't crazy and disorganized. It should be a wonderful day today - my last official day as an OC, and although I'm exhausted right now, wanting it to be over so that I can climb into my bed and sleep forever....I know that when I look back on it it's going to be the best experience of my life. Today I'm working at the nerve until 12pm, heading home for a quick shower and an even quicker bite to eat, and then I'm back to set up the semi formal. I need ot take my semi stuff with me (dress etc) so that I can change there. And that's it! I'm at the semi until the very end...probably doing the clean up until 5am. Then.....sleep. Class...clean....laundry....I have to be at the core tomorrow to clean from about 2-6, which isnt' so bad...I can sleep in.
I'm not sure how I feel about class starting right now. Part of me is really excited, and part of me is overwhelmed. Especially about money... I am applying for my BC student loan right now, but it takesw 6 weeks to process, and I don't feel like I have that kind of time. I don't even know how I'm going to buy food this month, or start to pay off some of my visa. The visa is what makes me the most stressed out.
I dunno, this is all very random. Things are going better with marcus, which makes me feel so much more orientated, in a good position. We just needed time to realign with eachother, and get used to being in the same city again. It took some work. We went out downtown last night because I had a couple of hours off, and went shopping, read books in chapters, ate sandwiches and enjoyed the nice weather. I got an early sleep last night, which should have helped with my exhaustion, but didn't. Appearently it'll take a week for me to feel like myself again.
That's it. This is so random. I haven't had time for anything - family, friends, boyfriend, eating, cleaning, sleeping, getting ready for classes. I just want normality again. I crave routine. This is just a little bit to chaotic for me.
