10:24 pm - Friday, Oct. 03, 2003
A moment of decision
I would rather just wait forever, then have it be next friday and the decision already made. I don't want to talk about it - don't want to come off as caring too much, because if I lost it, too many people will know how much I hurt. So I'm just mulling within myself for the time being. I know what to expect, but I don't know if I can do it. Not the job... I know I can do the job. I don't know if I can do the interview. I generally get talkative and lose my poise in an interview, I don't stop to think about what I'm saying before it flies out of my mouth. If there is ever a time when I need to ace an interview, it's now.
And it's homecoming weekend, which is a lot of fun. I liked seeing everyone lined up outside of Clark this afternoon for ritual - the old guys who graduated in the 80's, wearing jackets that are now way to small for them. It was very exciting, lots of energy in the air. I'm not drinkning tonight, I don't think. I will visit marcus's for a while, and then have a lot of fun tomorrow. Football game (if it doesn't rain) good times with friends, working hard on sunday to catch up to myself :) Next week is a big one... lots of stuff due. I'll be spending a lot of time at the library. And hopefully a lot of time at the Y as well, start making use of my membership now that my leg feels better. So that's it. I get a call some time this weekend to decide on an interview time, and then I guess the rest is up to me. I hope that I can make this fly... I would be the happiest person in the world next friday if I found out that the position is mine.
