11:35 pm - Friday, Dec. 26, 2003
Being honest with myself
Well, this is interesting... I got it from Blaze's site, and I found it to be a good kick in the pants for me...
"Honesty is the most important aspect in journal writing. Without self-honesty, your journal experience will be superficial words without awareness or growth. When you write in your journal is up to you".
Have I really been honest with myself? At times yes, and at times no. I am less afraid of the people that I know reading, and more afraid that the people that I am writing about will stumble across my personal space. But how likely is that? I don't think that we show up on any search engines...it's just personal paranoia I guess. Today was good. No panic attacks about being Head Gael. Not too much stress about my geo work, because I got a good start on it. I'm going to finish my reading tonight, and write it up tomorrow. Then I'll get to work on my essays that are due on the 5th. I'm okay I'm okay I'm okay (breath Bri). Went boxing day shopping, and picked up a minidisc player and some clothes, which is a good loot. I am NOT going to buy myself a new computer, as much as I want one. I'm going to get a DVD drive and a 19inch monitor though, and get regan to help me wipe off my hard drive properly, and reinstall all my stuff. That should work fine. I feel complacent today, but fat. Really fat. And that's honest. But I dressed up for shopping - my grey gap pants and my new sheer pink gap shirt with a red scarf and my new vintage bag...good makeup and hair..it's amazing how a little effort on my appearance makes me feel so much better. Tomorrow is a work day, so I'll stay grubby for that. My mom and I might go and see cold mountain though - so I'll look forward to that. My new necklace fell off today - I noticed in the first store we went into, so I don't think it was in the mall. I checked the car, but haven't searched the house. I hope it's here...I spent so much christmas money on it..really an important purchase. PLEASE - whoever is listening...can I have my necklace back? I will wish for it before I go to bed tonight. And world peace and an end to suffering and all that lot.
B.
